A blog dedicated to gajin gyaru fashion, and other forms of Jfashion, alt fashion, and kawaii things.
Thursday, September 3, 2015
Update/Phones stolen
Lisha here.
Got my phone stolen near Chinatown. Its the second time this has happened. Sucks.
I have too many health issues and fam members who need to contact me, and also work and such to have my shit stolen. pretty pissed at:
David "Nero Drexel" Ellis for touching me and trying to make me a part of his harem when I was not sober enough to consent to anything. He even sent a picture of himself to my phone before I blackout *Keisha of SugarGamers never ever went to check up on me when this guy would NOT leave me alone. Cosplay does not equal conest
Tunde Turner aka Liquid Mojo: for cheating me out of content, money, time, brain health, sanity, and also for perhaps profiting off of our work or personal photos, and being a stupid bitch.
Jade Barry; a liar, who the fuck cares if you did porn? You were used for a 3some, not to get knocked up by the dude. You were not paid to stay or take someones man, or tell your x to "go kill himself " since he was depressed. I used to be concerned about your eating disorder andweight issues, and wanted for you to atleast have Black*Cherry to hang out with, but you pretended that no one liked you so people could feel sorry for you.
Tomasa "Tomo" "Tomojewel" "Tama" Jackson: for being a fake ass "friend" /"gal sister"/ you tried my patience and used it up, wore it out. You wanted to steal my boyfriend, and L.A. and Johnny told me about you. You only said "sorry" when you were drunk. I was too nice to still even be cordial with you when you were trying to fuck my man at Xport when Murphy was at the dorms.
Anyway.... I;ll prolly bitch later.
I want my 2 goddamn black Hydrobvibes right now, because I have work and shit to actually do than do shitty make up, be a slacker, fail classes, poison people, rape people, or be a shitty person. Like my Ex used to say, "fuck it all".
Monday, August 17, 2015
Video Analysis - M3LL155x
I was very excited to watch Twigs latest video, M3LL155x . The videography is awe inspiring and takes full advantage of what can be done in music videos.
Seeing a humanified Anglerfish in there was awesome.
Dress me up, I'm your doll.
Love me rough, I'm your doll.
In my perspective, after the beginning song gives me an impression of a Twigs who is sexy especially in the eyes of a (white) male, making her 'exotic' and inhuman like a cheaply made, mass produced blow up doll; only to be consumed, used up, left and forgotten.
In dating, being in the gyaru community, being a female, I can definately see how men can reduce human female bodied persons to an inanimate object to be used only for sexual purposes.
You've got a goddamn nerve.
Twigs wakes up, pregnant with a child after having been used up. Before giving birth, her water breaks, paint spilling out, and a (Black) man looking disgusted with her.
In this part of the video, a person more of her ethnicity seems to cast her out due to her being impregnanted by a white male.
Now hold that pose for me.
Twigs gives birth to her own 'minions' ,one still with childlike curiosity and another that appears to be her alternate self, bound to herself in Creepy Yeha's fashionably erotic bondage pieces.
With my own experiences, I see it as a story of destructive lust in an interracial coupling, and fighting through the pain it can cause when you dehumanize a woman who can bare children and reduce her to those functions.
The white man who uses her is no where to be seen in the later half of the video at all, something that people who have grown up without a father have experience with.
What's your thoughts on her new video?
Sunday, July 12, 2015
Rebirth
I was back on fetlife again, feeling terrible still about the gender I was forced into accepting. I posted a photo, showing myself in all its 'glory'. People fapped over the pix while I felt differently. I had wanted gender reassignment surgery for a long time and a lot of people I knew thought it was all a phase.
I wanted to hear ( compliments on my looks don't do anything for me because it can be way too phony for me. ) He'd promise to take me out or tell me I wasn't too direct with what I wanted. It'd be about a month til he'd actually set aside time for me or make me feel a bit bad for not fawning over him as if he was the most handsome man ( not in my nature + I don't compliment like that or be phony).
I was also blank faced + taken aback from him asking to choke me out til I passed out.
My heart sank and I didn't eat for a week. The chemicals in my body from the shock of being lied to had me experiencing audio hallucinations + feeling like I was shrinking and the room I was in expanding. I was hurt!
I had some meetings of a therapist under my belt, met with people, but going through tough times with school, working and family.
Thursday, June 4, 2015
Weddin' Season
Wednesday, May 27, 2015
Alice: Madness Returns
Saturday, May 23, 2015
Mortal Kombat: Time Travel
Wednesday, May 20, 2015
Acen 2015
Machii, Neesie, Tomo, Jade and I at my Gyaru Panel |
Though I wish I danced the night away at Soap Bubble, I danced, shimmied, and bebopped along throughout the Dealer Hall's floor.
From the MisoLucki shoppe |
Julie from my high school! Hadn't seen her in 5 years!! |
Pic cred from Neesie! |
Me and my sis as BlackWidow! |
So cool! |
Suiting up |
You can check out more pictures I posted on my post for SugarGamers here. I am required to redirect to her site and such.
Anime Central: 2015
Tuesday, May 5, 2015
Reflections
thinkin on it,
how as a young adult,
i made my way out to Oak Park to meet with people from the internet, that...
only one girl came to CT to meet with me.
and
it took a long time for people to come out to see me...
i live further south than they did at the time. frown emoticon
or being stood up when id invite people to art shows and stuff.
like, people came in groups to see me in the hood (well, not too far south, of course. dont want chilrens gettin scared! lol)
like, you cant come by yourself? lolololol.
i guess, that should have told me right then and there that i should have stopped talking to a certain person after being stood up so much!
the girl that came to CT with me
the one who didnt leave me hanging
alone on the train platform with my blue hair
made me really happy to be outside.