Monday, August 25, 2014

Dearly Beloved

I have been listening to A LOT of GreenDay Songs lately. Greenday, P!ATD, Fall Out Boy etc. Brings back memories!! Summer break is almost over and... well, I am not in school anymore. ;-; But I have been thinking of taking some sort of class... But what?
Here are some lyrics for you to enjoy!

Dearly Beloved

Are you listening?
I can't remember a word
That you were saying

Are we demented
Or am I disturbed?
The space that's in between
Insane and insecure

Oh, therapy
Can you please fill a void?
Am I retarded or am I
Just overjoyed?

Nobody's perfect and
I stand accused
For lack of the better word and that's
My best excuse
(Green day, Dearly beloved, American Idiot)
dear (fill in the blanks), are we communicating effectively to each other?
Are we letting illogical things get in the way of acting normally?
 Or, is it just me?
Maybe its just the middle ground getting in the way, walking on a thin line, a tightrope in between two extremes as not to seem either way at all.
Hey, therapist, what the hell is wrong with me? Just tell me something so I can understand what Im feeling. I can't seem to act normally, am I dumb, or stupidly happy?

Not a perfect person. Yea, I said it. Sometimes I can't get the perfect word out at the right time, so that's all I got.

Infinity Loop + err0r

I saw one of my past French Teachers on Thursday! It's been about 7 or so years of being in his class. My French has gotten so rusty over the years.C'est Mal!! I even forgot how to reintroduce myself in the heat of the moment. It was sad. He told me to keep working hard and all that. It was great, but it hurt because I feel like I am getting nowhere right now, even though I feel like I am just still running around in circles with everything.

I have been getting good advice from friends and mentors lately. Its like a pep talk or one of those huddles before you do your thing or play football! I get lost in my daydreams of ye olden days, and I get pretty out of it which is no use at all in this world.

SO!!~ I did the thing. I made another mini video for Youtube. I wore my graduation Nekomimi! I get bored in my room sometimes and start doin stuff.

I would have loved to actually wear a nurse uniform for this.... but oh well. Maybe next time, right?
I wanted to tell a story between robots/androids. One is aware that the other is malfunctioning, but the one that is, isn't.

And, even though all this stuff about doll people or whatever thats in right now... nah. I prefer catgirls and robots! Which totally takes me back to my old online gaming and Apocryfa ones too. 

Friday, August 22, 2014


So much to process lately, and this might be long so.... grab a snack!

This past week has been a lil crazy. Maybe its just me...  Just trying to get out of this rut I've been stuck in for a bit. Being in a rut when you are trying to be productive and get things done and not stall (ehhh...)... gahh.... its no good at all...

pic courtesy of Sandra
Levitation powers!

Saturday I made a new piece of art for a new cafe. I hope they do well! Sandra met me up there, and I also saw some of my buddies too! I also went to Soundbar in the loop to dance. I wore super tall high heels, and I think I did pretty ok in them. heh heh heh. But makes me sad because I want to do some major shoe shopping! ;-;

The weekend was mostly just chilling. No working or trying to do something productive which was nice. Ok... maybe I still did some thinking.  ヽ(*・ω・)ノhehehe

On Tuesday, I got to watch this movie called Lucy  with a classmate from some years ago! I think I was a freshman or sophomore at that time when we met. I had wanted to see the movie from some months ago when the trailers were out. I really liked the concept of using more parts of your brain than you normally do. (sadly, its a myth...) And someone being able to be of the universe more than just acting within it. Anyways...

The movie was pretty badass. Choi Min Sik, the guy who played Oh Daesu in Oldboy was in it too! Even though tumblr people were upset about some possible racial things of the movie, I think they were going a bit overboard in a way. OMG WHITE GIRL KILLING ASIANS. But did you realize the location of the movie at all? I do get it a bit though, Asians are stereotypically the bad guys in these films in the USA. Oh well. I guess it will take America more time to let go of the B.S. in films etc.