Hello August

Its a bit surprising that 2014 is more than half over now. 2015 will be on its way, and another year will have passed. It will almost be a year of being out of school come this December. Almost a full year of not being a student and enrolled in classes.

My friend is starting her year of living in Japan now. I look forward to seeing her blog updates and hoping that I too will be able to go on an adventure there.

I'm trying to keep up with post-college stuff, finding work, freelance, and trying to keep myself from drowning in thoughts and neglecting things and looking forward to things that make me happy. Idk, Some days I feel really ambitious, and the ideas and courage come bursting out. Some days, I get discouraged and feel like hikkomori-ing myself in my room for some days.

Its something I am trying to shake off for years now. Get some sort of balance going, keep up that momentum. But it never seems to last too long.

Buuuuut, I have been making and uploading a few new Youtube videos again. I got pretty inspired taking in new music, videos, and also video suggestions from Ultra and Tairen. So I feel pretty good about that! I have some ideas I just need to get out of my head. Cooler ones than just make-up tutorials that I have been doing for a long time. Even though my latest video is a makeup tutorial, it has been sitting for months waiting to be finished. So I guess that's ok. lol

sidenote: There will be a video to piggyback off of my Youtube Welcome video eventually and a video that will be coming out in 16 days! I think it's cool and hope you all will like it too.

Though I like that I am making some new stuff here and there, I feel kind of guilty in a way. I should be focusing my time on job and career stuff. But... it's a part of the creative field... kinda. hahaha.

Lets my mind take a break from staring at words and corporate speak and whatnot.

I have been getting a lot of advice from coworkers, friends, and art buddies. Sometimes its a lot to take in and process with so many other ideas and what not, but I am grateful.