Dating advice pt 1

 Here is a collection of dating tips.

Do’s:

Date someone who supports you, your goals, and your accomplishments. 

Date someone who appreciates you. 

Date someone who doesn’t want you to become more depressed. 

Date someone that doesn’t want to have sex with all your friends. 

Date someone who can leave the relationship without putting all the blame on you.

Date someone who isn’t going to kiss and tell. 

Date someone who isn’t going to cheat on you and tell everyone and their momma that you cheated instead.

Date someone is mature enough to be able to talk out issues in the relationship to resolve them. (Lack of the ability to resolve issues or dismiss them is a sign that they don’t want to change their behaviour and doesn’t care if it affects you. Yes, older men do this too.) 

Don’ts 

Don’t date (or keep dating) someone who will worsen your depression or anxiety. Its a tactic for them to be able to pull the "my ex is crazy card" and discredit you. 

Don’t date someone who will make you feel insecure or enable bad or unhealthy decisions. 

Don’t date someone who will only want you back after you caught them cheating but never made efforts to keep you in the first place.

Don’t date someone who thinks it’s ok to have sex with your friends without your knowledge, or discussion of the do’s and donts of an open relationship.

Don’t date someone who thinks its ok to ruin your career or job status so you can't get away or afford the things you need to live. 

Don’t date someone who pressures you into a relationship too quickly.

Don’t date someone who shows a lack of interest in you. 

Don’t date someone who moves too fast into a relationship. Take it slow.

Cyborg teen titans and music as a crutch

 Cyborg from Teen Titans liking his shining song to open pickle jars and save his friends is so real. Sometimes things need to be a crutch to survive your day to day and get stuff done.   

When I was going to high school, a little before my jfashion beginnings, being on crowded, noisy buses was frustrating and exhausting. Luckily, LicaMica (my little sister), got me an iPod as a present. my walkman would always skip when the bus would pass over bumps and potholes on the road, but Apple’s iPod was a fantastic new piece of technology that my sister introduced me to. And boy! Was it so handy for me. I loaded my favorite Jrock and pop songs from America on it. 

It really helped me out. anyway, until next time!

Graphic Design, Gal, and The Name Game

So, sometimes multitasking keeps me focused on other things until I get time to review them. I am sitting here trying to update my sad lil Behance page with things related to graphic design work, and I just want to nap instead!

ahh.. ol gyaru memories. 

I am glad to have worked with my gal-sa crew over the years. I have not been one to work closely with people in school due to being reserved and also experiencing poor communication between teammates, as well as art times where the work was often dropped in my lap.

Anyway, back on topic, I loved brainstorming what our logo would look like, picking and choosing our circle's name and font to try to lead the style direction we were going for, and seeing how we should design our webpage and agree on copy for the web. 

It amazes me how much graphic design work, creative and artistic direction work had sat in my lap for so long when I helped with the non-event related tasks for Black*Cherry and Gal*Luxy. If I had tied more of my two worlds together a bit more earlier on at Columbia, maybe I would have had more design samples and would have liked the projects a little better. 

Too bad our websites have been deleted off though! boooo!

We picked and chose our font for our logo after deciding on a few names I had come up with for our circle.
I made a video in one of my classes to help promote our circle.

Work by LA 
ACEN 2010 promo

I do not recall when the trend of putting text blatantly on a picture came about, but it is shown here from about May 2010, created by LA. Putting text over an image was a BIIIG no-no in my design classes. 

Ha! 

But you can spot this type of design almost everywhere now. 

She was ahead of the game.

As for the things hitting me pretty damn late, Yea BDia aka BLACK DIAMOND. I am side eyein y'all. Y'all can call yourselves Black Diamond all you want and do your thing, but La and I were the original Black Diamonds. 

Get it? 

                             

                                           We were Black gals... 

                                                                         

                                                                                                 in Diamond gyaru sa.....

Reflections

July 24,2018

Some x from high school cheated on me and that its a dumb as fuck to continue to be with someone who is showing violent tendencies and lack of ambition as a teen, and even worse when you give them chances to get their act together instead of them doing so on their own free will. Even worse when they add up your gyaru peers to spread rumours about you or get others to do their dirty work for him. 

I diverted my attention from what happened and overworked myself to avoid thinking about it fully. Part of that is ok as I didn't allow myself to go back to something undesireable, yet I wasn't fully addressing something at the same time. 

Ive been coming to terms that when he wanted to include my “gal pals” physically in our relationship, he meant it. I’ve been coming to terms that during the summer of 2010, when I called his phone and a woman picked up and told me that she was busy with him, it could have been a woman he was intimate with despite our relationship being monogamous...or at least me being monogamous to him. (apparently there is a term for this in certain circles.... poly-fuckery. You're not really polyamorous- being honest on who you are seeing, you are forcing someone into dealing with you cheating but "not really'. You're welcome for a new vocab word.)

I’ve come to terms that he was scared he would lose his main chick or whatever he considered me as that summer and only pretended to cry so that I would pity him and take him back. I would not be surprised that when we were making our open relationship agreement (so I could actually go on dates because he didnt want to.... when I could have just blocked his number and went on with my college life... ) that he only wanted to be the one to have physical relations with other women and for me to be ok with that because he was cheating on me through those few years. It was like him being able to do as he pleased while I couldn't even get a kiss from a new suitor. (Unfair much?! )

I have been coming to terms with a nerdy woman blurting out to me that they didn't have cooties to me and that they were most likely alluding to them being intimate with my partner, bringing up conversations of having some Asian guy pay her rent (I had a similar convo of my ex wanting to “move in with me”), or her asking me what “size” of a man I liked and that she didn't prefer “small ones”. WEIRD.
 I also am concerned that they were at the clinic I went to when my x blamed me for something (a little before being told that a woman didnt have cooties) . Like , was I being followed there? Was she with my bf at the time when he bitched me out over the phone or something?

Not having the distractions of silly little spats and dealing with all the memories that flood back to me, I just wish I had the answers years ago to avoid working with someone that thinks its ok to do this and smile in my face and try to slip in calling ME a hoe in conversation as if that is empowering me, as if that's what friends/peers/partners in business do. 

But to be able to see how a a sexist guy thinks who wanted to be catered to and have a woman pamper him and buy him clothes without even earning that right... to be called Satan for “cheating” by someone who did so willing flirting with Saint Louis and Chicago acquaintances and calling THEM clingy, telling me i should gain weight to not be considered attractive, who went through my phone AND emails yet never offered to show me who he was messaging or calling... thats embarrassing to think that someone will think that some "history" of being together would allow them to continue this behaviour for another round with not even a true apology? lol. hilarious. 

Thanks for always thinking of me so much. I've been entertained greatly and enjoyed the attention from all the randos. 

Acen!

Acen was just last week, and I enjoyed myself. I met up with a lot of people, took in lots of advice from E and P , and spent time marveling over great cosplays. 

I even helped finalize outfits, and tweaked hair and makeup.

The weekend wasn't too wild or crazy, but it was a little enjoyable. 

Macy's 2017 Bridal Expo

Hello hello! Been booked with projects for a bit but wanted to pop a new post up!

The Macy's Bridal Expo was just a week ago, and it still feels extremely surreal! I got to choose two gowns to model for the event, 1 ball gown with gorgeous, delicate beading being worn for the runway.

Mini Makeup Haul

I haven't done a lot of hauls after post college it seems, but here is another one.
I went shopping one day, and decided to grab a few things to try out.
I usually use brow pencils for my brows but decided to dip my toe into the magical world of eyebrow makeup! I missed the brow mascara craze back in 2011 or so when some gyaru would use it on their brows.

I tried out e.l.f.'s brow kit from Target. Though at times I can't get a very clean cut look with my brows like the pics on Instagram, the kit does a decent job. On no foundation and minimal makeup days, my brows look pretty natural and I'm happy.

Now on to the eyebrow shaping kit... I am not pleased. The scissors are ok at best and a little clumsy, the brush is too stiff and I just have no use for the comb. The attachment to the scissors weren't beneficial at all so they were tossed. The tweezers didn't provide enough grip and I ended up using them for lash application. Thank goodness I have a pair of tweezers that work or I'd be s.o.l.

Until next time! 



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Skin Care for Kawaii Lovers

With us doing make up from a few days a week to nearly every day, it is very important to treat your skin nice in between you wearing your make up. Here are some tips for you!

1.       Don’t: Skipping the water. Going for juices loaded with sugar, sodas and adult beverages.

Do: Hydrate, hydrate, HYDRATE with water and low sugar options!

Why: Hydration is super important for the cells in your body, not just your face! Being dehydrated causes the skin to dry out, causing wrinkles and looking dull.

*Alcohol dehydrates you and you need to make up the water that is lost.

2.       Don’t: Sleeping in your make up!

Do: Clean!

Why: Depending on your make up usage and how long you wear it during the day, PLUS keeping it on as you sleep prevents your skin from “breathing”.  This can trigger and cause break outs, and aging of the skin.

After every eventful day, before you close your eyes and dream of your next cute code for an event, meet up or general outing, remove your lashes, lens and make up with a gentle cleanser suited for your skin type.

3.       Don’t: Not exfoliating.

Do: Exfoliating gently.

Why: Exfoliating with a gentle exfoliating cleanser  sloughs off the dead skin on top of the new skin that makes you look dull and dry.

*However, doing this too much or too rough will damage the skin instead!

4.       Don’t: Not wearing an appropriate sunscreen or moisturizing.

DO: Wearing an appropriate sunscreen and moisturizer daily.

Why: Applying an appropriate sunscreen before your foundation will help block some of the UV rays from your skin while you are out and about. Moisturizing before you put on your make up and after helps keeps your skin supple, soft and smooth especially if you are weathering harsh winter temperatures.

5.       Don’t: Eating bad foods regularly. Not eating your veggies.

Do: Eat a healthy and balanced diet and take your vitamins.

Why: Eating bad foods do not give you the nourishment you need to have healthy looking skin. Eating lean meats and fish, and lots of veggies and fruits is best!

Taking a boost of vitamins and supplements not just for the health benefits can help your skin and hair grow! Who wouldn’t want that!? You can also add in collagen pills to your vitamin regiment to help give you a little boost with your skin care.

6.       Don’t:  Frowning, being angry and stressed.

Do: Meditate and calm down.

Why: Being able to calm yourself down is very important. When you are stressed out, it manifests in your body. You don’t want to be so stressed out that you are constantly frowning or furrowing your brows, causing wrinkles over time. Center yourself, breathe, and get that inner peace! Doing yoga or working out for about 30min a day can help expend some of that restless energy. You can also make yourself a nice warm bath with bath salts or bath bombs to relax in too!

                Thank you for reading and stay tuned! Comments are always appreciated!

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Mini Haul, Another One

I've been experimenting with new nail colours than I usually use. A lot more natural tones and a lot more basic than the glittered and blinged out nails you all are used to me wearing. But for work or trying to land a job interview, they definately work.

Getting Older In A Alternative Fashion Community

As long as I have been blogging, my style has changed over the years. From a bit over the top and youthful edginess to more toned down and a little more sleek, the way I dress myself has definately gotten better. I also have gotten a better sense of what looks good on my figure and what I like and don't like.

(old pic)

As I am getting old and grey, and due to work as well, my style choices has been getting a little more boring! Trying to find decent basics for work functions have preoccupied most of my shopping.
(new pics)

However, I do my best to get a few items for leisure time and events that I can really express myself with.

It also is great that some of my coworkers appreciate dressing against the grain and showcasing your individuality. They help keep me true to myself, and seeking ways to not just stick to a basic pair of jeans and a plain ol' top.

I still incorporate some of my own recent customizations and selfmade items into my wardrobe to fully make my look my own!






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Mini haul

Shampoo and vitamins! How exciting! What I have been buying hasn't been that exciting these days it seems. Pencils, pens and basic notebooks aren't very eyecatching! maybe I should look into cute notebooks....

I kind of fell in love with the Organix shampoo. Though I'm going more natural with my hair care, I haven't fully researched all my options and would like to use up this stuff first! I went with the biotin and collagen and also keratin oil ones to aid in hair growth. Decided to mix it up from the keratin shampoo and conditioner I got during the Summer of 2015.

I also bought vitamins too for the fall and winter time to combat SADS due to lack of sun and my general hermitness during this season. Neesie, whom I met at Acen a few years ago gave me that tip! Thank you so much!

Until next time!

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